WoMan – A Transsexual Perspective
I try to look as good as I possibly can. Makeup is my soulmate and unless I have at least 6 colours on my eyes and blended as well as I can, I am never happy. I have been known to remove my painted face and reapply if it feels wrong. The result of such and being tall as well as dressing as TOWIE’esque as I can, means that I do get looks from the public.
The benefit of this is that I soon got used to it and stopped even wondering if I was ‘clocked’. In 7 months I have had 3 people offer me what could be described as unneeded remarks. But in the same period I have been blessed with a wealth of interest and chats with people who would otherwise have passed me by. I sat thinking about my meeting with the hospital psychiatrist in March. – not word for word
Q “What prejudice have you come up against Emma and how are you coping with it”
A “errrr what?”
Q “Prejudice, you know insults and abuse, you know!!”
A “yeah I know what it means, I just haven’t”
Q “Well you must have people look at you, how do you feel and how are you coping with that, it must be pressure”
I responses in a flash
“Well, I think most of the women want to be me and most of the men want to be with me!!!”
I am lucky that I am a very strong woman and more confidence than Germany at a penalty shootout. I can think on my feet and boldly answer where others may fear to tread. When you have made a decision to have your body re-assigned and live on the other side of the pink/blue boundary, there is very little to fear in my opinion.
But that is me and I can put my shoulders back, push my new boobs out and walk through town at 6’3” in my day heels with no fear or thought. Some of my trans-sisters are not as confident as me. I wonder if the way you look affects how confident you are? My voice has not changed yet it does not bother me, many TS hope and pray that they have a female or male voice, lots have surgery and voice coaching; why do I feel different? To be honest, I court interest and gladly chat to anyone who wants me to. I suppose my ego does help to drive me on. I love talking to people about the world of the transsexual and hope to continue for a very long time. I wonder if the same topics are an issue for trans-brothers as well. I intend to find out and report back
My views are my own and you may have a different perspective. I welcome any comments and it will be lovely to see you on my social media
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